Okay I am FINALLY  HOME!!!!!  ISN"T THAT SO FUCKEN AWESOME?!!!!! 

Hmm.. Sounds to me like you got into a deep pile of shit there... Well I honestly don't know what to tell ya hun... Why would you even move into an apartment with your brother in the first place? Right now you want a family that'll accept you for you? Is that what you think you'll get by moving in with your French teacher or something? Honestly now... I really don't think students should move in with their teachers, lesbian or not. Which one of you came up with that idea?

You say that you want to have a chance at having something you never really had, which I'm assuming from what you wrote is family. Well wouldn't you have that with your brother if you moved in with him? How old is he? Is he just out of college or is he like my brother n a way older half-brother that can provide for himself and a family if need be? Or is he _in_ college? I mean like... He loves you does he not? Do you think he'd be able to provide you with whatever you needed? Be it mental/emotional support, financial support, or a necessity of life... *cough* Where would you get the money for school and college? Would your mom pay for it, or would he pay for it? You mentioned how didn't even know how you'd even get the money for a four-bedroom apartment and all.

If I were you, I'd probably move in with my brother if you thought you'd be alright with him as far as all of the things I mentioned and more goes... It all depends on how well he'd be able to support himself on his own, and then you if you were to move in with him. I doubt he could support all the other people he wants to have move in with him, let alone his girlfriend with her baby _and_ another infant in the house even if the others paid for their things and helped pay bills. That's a really unhealthy lifestyle you guys would be living in. Shit girl, if he's going to have all of those people move in with him I wouldn't even bother trying to move in with all of them, even though it may hurt you. If you can talk him out of that, then try to do it but keep calm and try not to get mad n get into an argument; that will just make things worse. I know you've already argued with him, but try talking to him again. If that can't be done, you may have to hold it off for a while longer even if you don't like it and even if it hurts his feelings. That kind of thing just has to be done sometimes, you know? You can't expect to live without hurting people you love, life just doesn't go that way. Some people wind up hurting their loved ones more than others because of things that need to be done. Right now I think that you should do what would be best for you.

If it turns out that you're sure can move in with your brother without problems n all, and I were you, I'd move in with him and keep in touch with my French teacher just to tell her how things are going and all that. Nic I really don't think moving in with your French teacher would be a good idea. That just... Doesn't sound like the wisest thing. Sure I guess she cares and all that but that sort of thing just isn't done, you know?. If anything go with your brother.

I hope all that helped a little. heh, I tried... If things turn out for the worse, just say f*ck the world and try your best to pull out of that situation without a lot of scratches and try to move on. K? Good luck with that. N I'm here for ya if you need me for anything else...
~kate